I'm sitting in the Atlanta airport now as I write this blog post. Loads on my mind this morning, but the most important thing at this point is the fact that I've completely and totally blown my diet - yep! I overate at Thanksgiving, overate this weekend, I'm overeating now - having a Starbucks pumpkin spice latte & a danish. This all ends now though; when I finish this danish & coffee I'm getting back on track. I worked too hard to get down to 150 & I'm not going to let 1 silly holiday ruin it. (Now Christmas may be a different story)
I'm going to commit to running 3 miles Monday - Wednesday, because I can definitely do that! Hopefully I'm not dead tired after work. I'm going to commit to eating healthy this week while I travel, fruit and yogurt for breakfast, subway for lunch, & who knows what for dinner. Clearly I am on the only person who's in control of my life & my weight, so I need to make better choices right?!
I went shopping over the weekend (who didn't?!) & ventured to the Coach Outlet store. I found this beautiful jacket, the jacket was on sale & I mean massively marked down. Regular priced $448, on sale for $180 + tax.
I walked away from the jacket because I really don't need it. I've bought 3 jackets already during the fall. This particular jacket is just a want right now, plus I would have had to put it on a credit card (didn't really have the extra $200 - I had already shopped) & I don't want to overextend myself in credit card debt!
Yes - I'm trying to cut back on my shopping because I do a hell of a lot of that! I have clothes in my closet that I haven't worn in years & clothes that I bought over 2 years ago with tags still on them.
Someone please tell me I made the right decision. BLA!
Well it's Thanksgiving morning & before I head out to be with family & friends, I wanted to first with everyone a very happy Thanksgiving & reflect on the many reason I have to be thankful!
I'm thankful for...........
My job, because in this tough economic time, there are a lot of people who are jobless.
The fact that I woke up to sunshine this morning - it's going to be a great day!
And last but not least BLACK FRIDAY!
LOL! So I'm totally thankful for everything! Well my mom just called & said hurry up so you can help with the dressing - I guess that's my queue to shut down the computer & head her way! Have a happy Thanksgiving everyone! :)
I had a moment today, a moment that I've dreaded for a long time! I ran into my ex boyfriend and his wife at the gas station today. I have not blogged about my ex much because he is such a thing of the past, why rehash the past when the present and future is so much brighter? I won't go into much detail, but I caught my ex cheating on me with the woman he's married to now. On the outside, I stayed strong and didn't flinch to him, but on the inside it killed me. I thought that what we had would actually last, I was different from every other woman he had been with. I was a "good" girl compared to all of his other bad girls. I should have known then that he wouldn't appreciate a nice, hard working, educated woman like myself. I should have known that once a dog always a dog, but I thought I could change him. (Never again!)
So anyways, I pulled up to the gas pump, got my debit card out, slid my card and started pumping my gas. I was in my own world actually, Lady Gaga's Bad Romance was on XM, I was singing lowly & dancing at the pump when I looked up and first saw her get out of the car to go pay for their gas. That didn't stop me from singing and dancing to myself though! Then the ex gets out of the car, looks over and says, damn you ride like that now? I looked at him & said in the most sarcastic bitch voice ever yes I do, this is what success looks like. Do you know what his response was? OMG I wanted to punch him when he said this..."the wife is pregnant again." I just looked at him....amazed. I said oh that's great, now more of my tax dollars will go towards taking care of your 5 kids, but I'd rather it be my tax dollars than my whole pay check. He didn't say a word because by that time, "the wife" was walking back to the car scowling at me. I finished pumping my gas, looked at him & said now watch success as it drives away. To that I got no response, I got in my car, turned up my music and drove off.
He text me about 10 minutes ago to ask why I can't just be cordial with him. Why should I be cordial? We have no ties to each other, damn sure don't have any kids together, our families aren't close, we aren't close, as far as I'm concerned he doesn't exist, so why should we be cordial? Clearly he's an idiot! I'm not going to be his chick on the side - he has his "catch" and trust me she's definitely not a catch. She's 27, unemployed, uneducated, and pregnant again. Coming from her mouth - she doesn't have to work or go to school because her man makes sure she has everything she needs, plus going to school, working, and being a mom is just too much work.
At 20 something years old, I am learning a very valuable lesson about friendship!
One of the most important "ingredients" in a friendship is respect. Respect, as far as I'm concerned, is a mutual thing. You have to give respect in order to receive respect; you have to respect yourself in order for others to respect you.
Today I found out that a "friend" made some pretty nasty comments about me, of course, not to my face, but to a mutual "friend." After listening to some of the things she said, I really have to question the amount of respect I have for her and the amount of respect (obviously none) that she has for me. She made comments about my promotion and why she thought I received the promotion, about how she thinks he is paying my bills which is why I can afford to drive a "luxury" car, there were tons of other things, but I don't care to rehash.
I considered the person who made these comments a really good friend! We've known each other since we were in middle school & to find out that she said those things about me is flat out brutal. Our friendship hasn't been the same for a while, I felt like we were growing apart, but now I know our friendship will never be the same. I know that as we grow up, change careers, relocate, etc we often grow apart from old friends and make new friends, but I was not expecting this...not from her. I'd like to call her up and ask her why, but it's totally not worth my time huh?
When will we stop putting our dreams off for "one day" or "some day?" When we will start living in the moment, living as if today was our last? I mean let's all hope it's not our last, but only God knows the answer to that! I watched the Bucket List over the weekend & it made me think of the things I want to do before I die. Some of them I've already done, so I'll mark them off the list!
Live in a foreign country
Sightsee in London
Sightsee in Paris
Conquer my fear of flying
Conquer my fear of heights
Try one new food a day
Swim with the dolphins
Skydive with my BFF
Maintain my sexy <- always a work in progress
Move up the corporate ladder
Become an official member of the 'Mile High' club (LOL)
Run a marathon
Learn to speak French
Learn to speak Hindi
Take dance lessons
Go on a helicopter ride
Drive a race car
See the Northern Lights
Go to Oktober Fest in Germany
See cherry blossoms in DC in full bloom
Visit Big Ben
Visit Buckingham Palace
See the Northern Lights
Go to rock climbing
Learn to say hello in 50 different languages
Join a blowing league
Realize that some friends are only around for a reason, some for a season, others for a lifetime
So what would YOU put on F♥ck It! Let's Do It! list?
Remember the job interview that I had & the job offer that I received? Remember me saying that $75K just wasn’t enough? Well, the company upped the ante & extended an offer of $80K to me. All sounds great huh? Yep it does, people would kill to have that kind of salary & so would I! I started looking for a job a few months ago because I felt like the position that I’m in with my current employer would never change. I also felt like I would never receive more compensation for all for all of the hard work that I put in.
I had a conversation with some of my superiors regarding the offer that received from a competitor, advised that I was considering taking the offer because I felt like the opportunity for advancement was inexistent, but wanted to know if they felt there were other opportunities for me with the company. There was some initial discussion of the fact that I had signed an agreement called a non-compete which prohibits me from working for a competitor, but I know those are loosely enforced! Honestly, I didn’t want to leave, I didn’t want to start all over – my job is pretty lax, everyone is easy going & I am so scared that the next consulting firm might not be the same. 1 week later there was another discussion surrounding moving me to another area of the business, something I had asked for previously, but was told no.
Needless to say, I think my current employer realizes the value of some, maybe not all employees, and has made me an offer that I cannot resist! I’ve been looking to move into the sales & marketing side of the business for a while & I’m finally getting the opportunity. This time it’s real! There was talk of this a few months ago, but now it’s real. I’m excited! There will be a ton of work I’m sure, some that I will probably love & some that I will hate, but I’m ready to embrace it with open arms. I like the sales/marketing side of things. I like meeting new people, finding out how business run & how our products can help companies improve their processes and performance, & I like doing product demos. I have a lot to learn though, I’ve done a few demos, but never seen a sales cycle from beginning to end. I’m unseasoned, untrained, totally new, but I’m like a sponge, ready & willing to soak up every bit of information that I can! I’m ready for the challenge, it starts in 2010! 2010 will be a great year! I look forward to blogging about that journey!
Oh! And on a side note!!! I caught up with an old fling over the weekend. We ran into each other at the bank. Now when I say an old fling, I mean like freshman year (2001) of college old fling! We’re going to get together next weekend…I hope he’s still as cool as he used to be!